Eliana's Resurrection

WRITER'S BLOCK. Everyone gets it. Sometimes you sit in front of the computer, and you want to write, but it just. Doesn't. Happen.

It's not that I've been lazy to update this blog... Well, maybe slightly la. I don't know.. It's not that I have no stories to tell - on the contrary I've just finished my internship, and have had my whole worldview on practical trainings radically altered.

And I've had ups and downs. Rollercoaster rides the likes of which I haven't experienced in years. People who've come into my life whom I can't decide whether I love or hate. In short, the things that being a final year university life does to you.

But it's all happened so...suddenly.

So I'm kinda reeling from it all right now. And I ask for your patience (yes, all of you.. if any... who still bother to check this blog. It's an old joke, but probably never more true than now) Here's an update after the long hiatus - there's still more to come. You'll laugh. You'll cry. But most of all, you'll wonder--

How the hell did this girl find time to even blog?

WOW....

It's already approaching the end of August and I have succesfully abandoned this blog for more than 2 months.

Benci sebenarnya bila pikir pasal insiden yang terjadi akibat kewujudan blog ni tapi perasaan rindu nak blogging tu ada lagi.


Bila lah agaknya emosi aku nak recover dan ada mood nak update selalu-selalu macam dulu... :(

Just Click PLAY.

I was awestruck as I feast my ears on this extremely beautiful composition of VIVA LA VIDA + LOVE STORY. Two of my favorite songs - combined. I couldn't ask for more. I just felt like crying as I listened to it. Very, very, beautiful song. Kudos to the composer..


Here goes... You just have to listen to it.

A LITTLE NOTE FROM THE AUTHOR...

You've got the invitation!! So, Congratulations! That means you are not one of the psychos wandering around trying to ruin my life because yeah, obviously, if I invited you here, then it means I have allowed you have a peek into my private life. So, let me just give you a little pat on the back for being a normal human being that don't go around destroying my life and putting me under huge depression.


So yeah, now you know that my blog is on invited readers-only mode. And I'm sure you're aware that most of you were not given the invitations to read this blog at first. And some of you made sure your voice was heard about this change. I'm sorry to not have a pre-closure entry or anything before I completely shut it off from the public. Don't be offended for not being invited at first because initially, no one was invited anyway. So I've decided to switch off the public mode and wait to see the response that I get so I could filter down my readers properly.


I've been blogging for almost 6 years now (almost 4 years on this blog alone), and I've never, EVER closed my blog to the public before this. So now you know that I'm currently going through one of the hardest times in my life that was actually caused by people's misinterpretation of my entries which eventually led to one after another emotional damages to my life. Sigh.


So, I hope that clears up the curiosity of why has this blog been put under private mode at the moment. Now that you've been invited, so you can see that my blog is back to the usual humdrum ways like how you often see it before this. And I also need to remind you that you will probably be asked to login with your email sometimes, so I'm sorry to have to burden you with all that.


Lastly, thanks for your neverending support that actually keeps this blog alive. I'm overwhelmed with the response that I get from people requesting for invitations to this blog. Thank you my silent readers. I'll try to update as frequent as possible with more exciting entries for your reading pleasure. :)

Meet KRL. :)

(Bawak bertenang kawan-kawan. Ini bukanlah satu entry yang bertemakan 14.02 because I happened to be facing an unexpected health issue during that particular week. So I've to admit that I've got no confetti to throw in celebration of VDay. Sila harap maklum dan kepada Jis, sila jangan kecewa. Hehe)

KRL & Me

Well guys, here you go. I think it's been years since I last posted a picture of me with a guy in this little bloggie, hasn't it? And amongst the guys that I've actually gone out with, why oh why did I pick him to be featured in my blog? Aha. First - I know he wouldn't mind the publicity and Second - because he was there for me all along throughout the times when I was really down and hurt, always there with his brilliant words of courage and wisdom. Yes, that's KRL. A certainly treasured friend of mine. Betul la friend. Kan KRL kan? Ehe.


The above picture was taken secretly by Aimi and I only realized that Aimi was holding up her phone to take our pictures only after she had taken a few shots. Yeah, KRL and I went all the way to Shah Alam that night because Aimi had been wanting to meet him for so long. I was extremely surprised by his spontaneous suggestion as I met him up earlier that evening because I've never been out with a guy who would literally offer himself to meet my friends. Such a friendly guy, this.


Despite the fact that he should be burying his nose in his thick medical journals to prepare for his coming Masters' Degree exam, he was hardly stingy to me with his spare time, and I really look up to him for that. Now I feel bad myself to have gone out with him during the times when he should be at home, revising. Tee hee!

KRL & Me again

Here's another pic of us - taken a few weeks back. That was him. On the phone. And me. Also on the phone. Certainly not a good sight that I'd want to remember, but I treasured the time that he spared to hang out that night, even for just a drink, despite him having to be at the hospital throughout that evening as he was in charge of on-call duty. Sempat jugak dia lari kejap from hospital malam tu to join me, Aimi, and Shawal. (Shawal is Aimi's 'close-friend', who's also a doctor and happens to be one of KRL's buddy in HUKM).


This picture above was also taken by Aimi, also without me noticing. I only realized thie existence of this pic when she showed it to me on our way back home. We were at a lakeside restaurant somewhere close to HUKM at that time. It was the night when KRL was on-call, and at the moment this picture was taken, he was actually talking to one of his medical staffs, advising the appropriate measures to be taken to treat a chronically bleeding patient, if i'm not mistaken. And there I was, also on the phone, also talking about work stuff. We spent half of the time talking on the phone with other people and I felt completely awful after we left because I hardly even had the chance to have a real conversation with him.


Sigh.


And I haven't seen him eversince. I understand that he has this major Masters' degree exam approaching in a few months' time so I'm giving him some time off. I hope the proximity of our friendship can be restored back again after that. I don't know.


Let's just wait and see.



*Pardon the emotional mood in this entry. I really am feeling emotional right now. Hence, this random post about KRL.

Lagi 3 hari...

Dah takde perasaan dah pasal Valentine's Day ni semua.


Sigh.


Biarla takde boyfriend pun. Tak mati de. *statement defensive tak hengat*


Lalalalallalaaskippadeedoo~!

Lagi 4 hari...

Benci laa.

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